A FEW years after he thought he had seen the last of a hospital ward when he was discharged after suffering from a meningitis-related spinal illness, comedian Clive Chigubu once again finds himself in a battle for his life, after he was diagnosed with Diffuse Large B cell lymphoma (DLBCL), a type of cancer that has left him bedridden.
DLBCL is a type of non-Hodgkin lymphoma (NHL), a cancer of
the lymphatic system which, according to some medical research, is said to be
more common in men than it is in women. It develops when the body makes
abnormal B lymphocytes.
These lymphocytes are a type of white blood cells that
normally help to fight infections.
At the onset of the Covid-19-inspired lockdowns two years
ago, Chigubu seemed to be regaining his mojo, with video skits that were once
again reminding people that he is one of Zimbabwe’s most gifted comedic minds
and actors. Those skits followed a lengthy layoff that had seen the 2015
National Arts Merit Awards Outstanding Comedian award winner vanish off stages
and screens alike.
However, just as he was seemingly on track and picking up
steam, the Chigubu train has once been derailed, with a diagnosis that has once
again turned his life upside down.
“In late September, my nose got blocked after a suffered
from a really painful ear. At the time I thought it was the usual flue. I
steamed but I couldn’t clear the blocked nasal passage.
In November, I had a sore throat which affected my voice
and because of that I ended up doing fewer wedding performances due to the
strain in my vocal and nasal areas.
In January, someone advised me to go to an ENT physician
(ear, nose, and throat doctor) who can be found in at United Bulawayo Hospitals
(UBH) and can only be seen on Fridays.
The process of having an appointment with him was time
consuming and it took a considerable amount of time to finally see him and
begin the process of diagnosis.
“I was admitted at the hospital for sample extraction. The
first test detected cancer and further tests were recommended and after some
considerable time the final tests came out and I was diagnosed with DLBCL.
Up to now I’m still in the process of seeking treatment of
which I’m deeply worried because I haven’t received any treatment due to the
slow processes in the system and also financial constraints. This is happening
while this cancer is still spreading.”
The comedian, who in the past spoke fondly about his
relationship with his five-year-old daughter, said his battle with cancer had
driven a wedge on their father-daughter bond, as he was now unable to carry out
simple tasks like walking and talking.
“My child has been my inspiration and my pain throughout
this ordeal. The truth of the matter is I cannot control these things.
Sometimes, especially of late, she has started adjusting to what I can now say
is her new normal.
I went from spending most of the time with her, being a
playful and providing dad to a state where she sees me unable to communicate
with her due to my deteriorating health. She tries by all means to take it like
an adult but the five-year-old being in her also reminds her to express herself
in a way that pains me within.
“She would sometimes ignore me as if I’m not present and I
would feel her disappointment. It is not like I asked for this. Questions like
‘Daddy you’ve been ill for so long why can’t you just drink a magic portion
like some cartoons on Television and get well once?’ She even insists on
helping me when I’m struggling to do simple things.
However, I don’t feel like I’m cursed and the fact is that
I’m a victim to this condition. I’m actually failing to walk, talk or breathe
without a lot of effort but my mental state is in my strong point and I believe
that I cannot be pulled down by the negative,” he said.
Chigubu as he had largely lost his voice, he was now using
hand signs to communicate with his family.
“The idea of lengthy booking dates and a number of required
tests done privately has been my nightmare and a drawback to my treatment and
recovery and interaction with my family has also been a challenge since my
voice hardly projects and therefore, a lot of hand signs have to be used.
Also, my siblings have a hard time coping with my condition
and the thought of them watching me fighting for my life is a knock down on its
own. So, in brief I can say the whole experience is unbearable but my spirit
cannot be broken by what I see with my physical eye,” he said.
Chigubu said what particularly saddened him was that the
cancer had struck when he was on the verge of a reviving a comedy career that
had already previously been affected by illness.
“The worst thing is I had just signed a contract with
Zwangendaba Productions Company, a film company that is still establishing here
in Bulawayo. They were willing to lend me whatever equipment I needed to shoot
my skits and in future we would shoot films.
The two guys are based in United States and one member
stays in Zimbabwe. After all that, the devil gives me a Will Smith smack in
face with this . . . so if people, companies could help me out I would be
grateful.
All I have is faith and with God by my side I will fight it
and get back to the top. I want to continue and fulfil my destiny,” he said.
Despite his trials and tribulations, Chigubu said he was
still upbeat and wanted his fight against cancer to be a beacon guiding others
in their own battles with the ailment.
While he has been the man delivering hope and cheer to the
grief-stricken with jokes over the years, he believes now is the time he needs
to deliver healing through inspiration and a never-say-die attitude.
“At first I slightly thought of that and then I said to myself,
maybe I am supposed to bring hope to the hopeless from the kind of job I do,
laughter on its own is a medicine for stress relief. What I’m going through is
a path, a simple test from God. I’m going through it so someone else can take
inspiration from me.
When the devil sees greatness in you, he will fight you
more. So, it’s not a curse really, the world is full of ups and downs.
“I feel no pressure to be the Chigubu people know all the
time. I have always been that and I will remain that way. When the nurses
delivered the bad news and said, ‘You have cancer, it’s incurable, we are
moving you to Mpilo for you to at least try’ I said sh*t and a tear dropped
down my eye.
I was with my uncle, who is also my director, and I said
let’s fight it, we can beat it. We started researching ways of beating this
thing. When the body is weak, the mind and soul need to be the strongest. You
have to look at the future beyond your current circumstances. You can win any
battle,” he said.
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